Writing n Releasing

My Time…

Yeah,

(I was a girl lost looking for love),

To my daughter and everyone in between,

(I walked through fire in my own skin),

Left behind yesterday, embraced where I’ve been,

(And now I’m standing right here),

With strength in my eyes, a future clear.

Yeah, they gotta recognize the climb,

I’m at the peak, leaving old times behind,

Streets of dreams, now I’m walking so fine,

Life’s a runway, and now it’s my time,

Yeah, rising up, watch me shine.

The past was just a lesson, but now I’m dressed in blessings,

In designer threads, no more stressin’,

Dropped the fakes, kept it real, that’s my confession.

From Balenciaga strides to Chanel dreams,

I turned my life around, I don’t regret a thing.

Dabbled in the dark, but now I walk in God’s light,

Raising my girl, our future looking bright.

Talked about love in the past tense,

All these men act like boys,

talking non sense, barely making cents.

I know I’ve been a storm, hard to hold, hard to mold,

Hard to fold, hard to control.

But now I’m rewriting my story, bold, not old,

With wisdom and courage, watch my life unfold.

It’s like I’ve been reborn, embracing the new dawn,

Left behind the tears, I’m no longer torn.

It’s like I’m rising, embracing the new day,

Left behind the fears, I’m here to slay,

Here to slay, here to stay,

Rising, embracing, I’m winning in my own way.

I used to let the past hold me back,

But now I’m on track, no more lack.

I’m God-made, my life’s on the up,

Raising my daughter, filled her love cup.

Used to mingle with the fast life, quick thrills,

But now I’m all about fulfilling God’s purpose.

Dreamt of riches, fame, and such,

Now I know, self-love is worth so much more.

I’ve danced with shadows, now I’m living in the light,

MY struggles are no longer a fight.

I’m the architect of my destiny,

From life’s lessons, I claimed the victory.

I’m stepping in strong, leaving the past long gone,

Left behind the right that felt so wrong.

I’m a woman of God , saved by Jesus,

In this game of life, I’ve truly grown.

Look at me now, coved in God’s grace and glory,

I’ve run the race, found my place.

Yeah, baby, I’m the story, the headline,

Watch me redefine the entire outline.

tHe rEAl hIM

Guys out here, they really can’t speak on me,

I’m just amazed, they use my name so frequently.

Weekend’s come, I’m starting it just right,

Focused on everything, I don’t need the spotlight.

New York men, got that style that never fades,

Atlanta boys, they keep it cool in all the shades.

Virginia’s own, they got a vibe that just flows,

LA guys, they shine, wherever they goes.

But then there’s him, so different, it’s so clear,

Just met him, yet I feel like he’s always been near.

He’s done this before, it shows in his stance,

We’ve crossed paths before, it’s not just chance.

They say, “don’t fall for him,” but I’m ignoring the clues,

If I don’t heed their advice, what’s there to lose?

But now it’s weekend time, we’re starting it with a blast,

Even if we’re just half right, we’re meant to last.

He’s got his walls, and I’ve got mine too,

But in each other, we find something true.

We’ve both got pasts, but together, we’re right,

He’s from a world of his own, a breathtaking sight.

New York men, they play it cool and sly,

Atlanta boys, they bring the heat, oh my.

Virginia’s own, they keep it real and true,

LA guys, in the lights, they find their cue.

But he’s not just a number, not just a face in the crowd,

He’s the kind of mystery that makes you wanna shout aloud.

Got a feeling about him, can’t be just a fling,

In his rhythm, I find a reason to wanna be in sync.

So here we are, in a world of our own,

In his eyes, I find a love that’s fully grown.

We might just be two souls, lost in the night,

But with him, everything just feels so right.

No Giving Up

From scrubs to suits, I’m shifting lanes,

In college halls, embracing change.

My journey’s more than grades and books,

It’s ’bout the leaps of faith I took.

Once nursed the sick, healed wounds and pain,

Now law’s my path, a new domain.

In courtrooms where justice sings,

I’ll fight for truth, let freedom ring.

My past sins, they haunt my dreams,

But God’s my guide, His light it beams.

A mother to one, my girl, my heart,

For her, I play my biggest part.

I juggle life, with grace I strive,

To show her how to thrive and survive.

In God’s hands, I place my fears,

His plan for me, through trials and tears.

Educated, strong, a woman’s might,

In God’s armor, I face the fight.

A role model, in my daughter’s eyes,

Under His watch, my spirit flies.

Yeah,

In the silence of my room, I kneel and pray,

Asking strength for each test, each challenging day.

Forgive my wrongs, I’m learning still,

In God’s grace, I find my will.

To my daughter, I’m more than just a mom,

A beacon in the storm, a soothing balm.

Balancing life, with a heart so strong,

In His love, is where I belong.

Look, back in college, books in hand,

Dreaming big, on future’s land.

Law’s my calling, I’ve found my voice,

In every case, every tough choice.

My life’s a lesson, a story to tell,

From nursing shifts to legal wells.

Each step I take, a leap of faith,

In God’s plan, I find my space.

Raising her, with love and lore,

Teaching to soar, explore.

A woman of strength, of divine light,

In darkest times, I’m the bright sight.

Facing trials, with a steady heart,

In God’s masterpiece, I’m a vital part.

From healing hands to justice’s plea,

I’m more than what the world sees in me.

So here I stand, a woman renewed,

In God’s hands, my life’s construed.

From nurse to lawyer, mom to guide,

In each role, I take in stride.

In the mirror, I see my worth,

A woman empowered, a divine rebirth.

Thankful for each day, each given chance,

In God’s rhythm, I dance my dance.

For my daughter, a future bright,

In her smile, I find my light.

This is me, strong and free,

A woman of God, that’s who I’ll be.

She sipped on dreams like white champagne, intoxicated by his love’s cocaine, But the high faded, unveiled the dealer’s game, Diamonds of trust turned into shards of disdain, Inhaled his lies, exhaled the pain.

Two-faced, unveiled facades, (unveiled facades) Her heart’s a trip, lost in his mirages. (lost mirages)

He’s like a toxic melody, got her hooked on the song, In the symphony of deceit, where love’s the bong. Oh, love, you’re a two-faced high, Brought her to the clouds just to watch her cry.

Her soul’s the tune, on his reckless high, Tried to find a new rhythm, but the echoes wouldn’t comply. Echoes of deceit, whispering the pain, Chasing the dragon, his love was her chain.

Two-faced, unveiled facades, (unveiled facades) She’s stuck in the rhythm of his false charades. (false charades)

He’s like a toxic melody, got her hooked on the song, In the symphony of deceit, where love’s the bong. Oh, love, you’re a two-faced high, Brought her to the clouds just to watch her cry.

She found her antidote, found her rehab light, Rose from the ashes of his narcotic night. Pain was her mentor, tears her guide, Discovered the sobriety, he tried to hide.

He’s like a toxic melody, got her hooked on the song, In the symphony of deceit, where love’s the bong. Oh, love, you’re a two-faced high, Brought her to the clouds just to watch her cry.

The withdrawal she weathered, the addiction she tried, Now she steps out of his haze, her head held high. Mirror reflects a survivor, clean from his deceit, She’s more than his illusion, her journey’s now complete.

B.L.A.C.K. M.E.N.T.A.L.

B.L.A.C.K. M.E.N.T.A.L.

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      It has always been frowned upon for a 
black man to be vulnerable, weak and emotional.
He was never encouraged to seek therapy or to express
his problems. Instead it was instilled into him to 
hide his pain and, just "man up!" 
      Many black men don't grow up in a two parent 
households, some have their fathers present, but not
actually present. While others have no presence
of any male presence at all, they only had their others.
The rest of them raised themselves in a world that tries 
to erases their existence.
      I need our Black Men to know that his emotions 
are not his weakness but a strength. Through his 
vulnerability and adversary, he survives and 
thrives with finess. It is better for a man to 
understand himself and take accountability of his 
actions than hold his head down and burry his self 
with pride and shame.
     So I say to you today Black Man, be all of who you are 
in all of your strength and weakness. For your tears are seen,
your pain is heard and you are not alone. It will be ok. 
     Let go and Love You! You are God made and you are
needed, which means you have purpose. We are here to listen, 
to understand, and to love all of who you are. You 
are strength! You are the foundation and we need YOU, BLACK KING!

Save Me

My mind is consumed with another voice

Every single day

Every single night

Thoughts of my wrongs

Thoughts of my rights

Every time I’m doing good

The Devil reels me back in

He knows my weakness

So against me he uses it

Attacking me from all sides

I pray, and pray and pray

My faith get stronger

These obstacles get harder

I can’t take anymore bad days

Sad, depressed, confused

That’s just what the Devil ordered

Feeling intoxicated when I close my eyes

I’m exhausted

Giving into the temptations life dangles in front of me

I’m tip toeing in the devils playground

Somebody save me

I don’t wanna be here

I’m a good girl

My intentions are pure

God you know my heart

Will you forgive me

Save me please

WOMEN, NON EXISTENT

Women, created from a man’s rib to be his partner

Not beneath, behind or out of sight

But next to him as his equal

Giving up all of who she is for you

Left begging for attention, affection and admiration

She is not seen

Left to fight for the right to breath

To speak

To think

To live

She is treated as an object

An object you need and can’t live without

Her curse for deception, are the pains of child birth

She was made for this

To birth life

To birth you

Being controlled yet again

She doesn’t have the choice to choose

Back in time she goes

Maybe having sex to only procreate should be a law

A woman is just that

A WOMAN of so many hats

She is a human

A person

A child

A daughter

A sister

A friend

A wife

AND A MOTHER

The one who you look for

It is you for whom she dedicates her life to

Why would you hurt, harm, and hate her?

ONLY GOD CAN DISCIPLINE, JUDGE, and CONDEMN

Still the world murders her mentally, emotionally and physically

The Bible says “He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her”(John 8:7)

Who are you take away her freedom to choose

She is a WOMAN

To be respected, loved, and protected

But becoming non existent she will not be erased.

To Be Excepted Or Not To Be

To Be Excepted or Not To Be

I am me

Confused and left out

Bi-Racially

Partially excepted by one race while barely acknowledged by the other

I am racially mixed

Raised by a black man and born to mixed woman

Living in an all-black culture, identifying as black was who I thought I was

But I couldn’t ignore my other side

I didn’t look like the rest

Light skinned, long curly hair

It is who I am. It is in my DNA.

I am the product of two people who didn’t see color.

Two people whose decision was not excepted and discriminated against on both sides

Being accepted by my family through default

I wasn’t deaf to the secret conversations about my identity

Bi-racial I am, that’s me, I am me

Is this my fault?

Where do I fit in?

Too often I catch the stares, hear the snares, and comments like,

I talk like a white person

I got some good hair

I think I’m better than them

But my speech is articulate

My hair is a mess

And who is them because I don’t know who them is

By whatever do they even mean

I talk like myself

I look like myself

I am not better; I am just me

Way to often the world becomes consumed in another’s life

So much so, we fail as people to acknowledge and except that no one person is better than the next

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

Success is happiness

Jealousy and envy within oneself make us hate one another

The color of your skin, my skin, their skin is still skin with just a different tone

No matter fair skin, tan skin, freckles skin, brown skin, dark skin

One’s color does not define who they are

Stronger together than alone and as one

We were all created the same but with differences so we can all fulfill our own purpose

But this world only sees color on levels of hierarchy

Fun fact though, black is dominate

Intimidating even for fear of overshadowing

But who said the color white was so superior

Without color you lack life

So what, I am who I am, bi-racially black and white

But in all honesty, I’m just me

I’m not caring anymore if I’m excepted or not

I am just me and you are you

I can’t be you because you are you

You can’t be me because I am me

So, let’s just agree to be excepted or not

WE DO NOT CARE, WE LOVE WHO WE ARE

But most of all

WE LOVE EACH OTHER!

ALONE

Alone

To be without anyone

Thats how I feel

No that’s how it is

Promises of a helping hand

Family was supposed to be the pedigree

but i guess it was all a dream

Alone in the morning

Alone at night

Alone when I’m high

Alone when I’m low

Who knew I’d be doing this life alone

Thought I had friends but they’re just there

Thought I found love but it didn’t last forever

I know I’m good by myself but who wants to be alone

In my mind theres a lonely space fiening to be filled

I don’t want to be alone

My heart feels less and has become heartless

My thoughts consume me with maybes and what if’s

I don’t want to feel alone anymore

There has to be a cure

Alone is how I feel

No, that’s what it is

Not for long though

I’m coming out strong

I’ll never be alone again

I got Me, Myself and I

No More Thots🥀

No more thots

What happen to respect

You let him enter with cruel intentions

You don’t wanna text friend put him up against all your next men

And he don’t want a material girl

No more thots

He’s got the right

He wanna Lady he can Love and Fuck

Not a everybody had his Wifey type of look

No more thots

A Beautiful Queen you are

Made from his rib, delicate, emotional, strong, & intelligent

Love and Respect yourself,

I promise your time is coming

No more thots

You are Perfectly Imperfectly Beautiful

You are you, a woman, a lady, a daughter, a sister, a mother, and a King’s Queen

No more thots

You are truly alluring

Act accordingly so you can be loved correctly

You deserve the world

Hold your head high

Be A Queen🌹